Erhem. Anyways... I'm suppose to be "upgrading my writing skills" through this newly acquired interest in blogging (which hopefully lasts long unlike some matters which i will be touching on later.. ) BUT i think this task is not easy to accomplish seeing from my self-progress these few months.
Btw, while putting on clothes for my blog, i notice my profile (which you can check it out too on the right sidebar with outdated info) that this is my 6th year in the blog scene.. Which means i started my first blog 6 years ago! Wow, six years is a damn long of time.. But of course, had never been really an avid blogger as i'm always on hiatus for long periods.. Haha, suddenly feel bit shameful. Oh well, nothing's lost.
Back on the topic of long-lasting tasks... (just another emo-ranting post actually.. ;) Lately particularly since the starting of my final year of university studies, i have been having NO motivation to do any tasks at all. Be it coursework, FYP, housework, blogging... anything! Even the recent exam that just finish this afternoon.. i feel like, "Oh, it's okie.. as long as i pass then good.." "I'm just glad it's over..." and stuff like that.
To me, i feel like i'm just waiting for time to pass. For things to change and for some time for me to begin a fresh path. For i took the path most taken, and i end up lost just like everyone less. (Or so i thought. ) So now i'm thinking of retracing my path and start anew, albeit a little later than others.
I have my motivators, it's just that.. like antibiotics, they lose their effectiveness after much dosages. Deep inside i know i can do better than this, i just don't have the push to bring myself to work even 1% more. I don't know if this has got anything to do with contentment. As lately, i have been feeling really contended with my life, and i feel that things don't really need to be going the way it is intending to go. To get the best first class honors, to get a high paying job... i questioned myself are those necessary. I could just get a good paying job, just enough for all my basic expenses, and live a simple life. I've even thought of living on my own planted crops! Too much "Travel & Living" maybe.
Of course, end of the day i know that without a high-paying job i won't able to feed all my desires and needs... not in this era anymore. I just need an excitation voltage or some sort, to push me to the next realization level to become a truly, truly...... money-enslaved adult.
Ok then, now that i know what i need, who is kind enough to derive me an equation for this unpredictable excitation voltage?
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